Yes I feel like that too & that's probably why my T thinks (along with others) that I'm making myself depressed. I'm even starting to question myself. I was thinking could there be some truth to that statement. I mean I can admit I'm scared to see life outside of Depression because I've been in it for years, but that doesn't mean I like it here nor does it mean I want to stay stuck.

It's a good thing you will be seeing someone soon. As for me...I don't know. I hope you can get the help you need & deserve.