Oh Lostmyway, I undertand those feelings. I've been in therapy a year now and the majority of that time was spent... talking about stuff...starting to trust him..feeling like I was getting too close... telling T. I was going to quit... then I would stick it out again...and the cycle would repeat... eventually I got to the point where I realized it was okay to need things from other people and T. was the perfect person to "practice" having those feelings and having those feelings met. So much has changed for me over this year.

Your T. probably realized that you are going through this. The only thing I regret about my past year of therapy is that i didn't talk to T. about how hard it was ... we didn't talk too much about our T./Client relationship and I think if we had I would have been able to work through it quicker....but then again maybe he did try to help through that but I wasn't able to hear it and deal with it..

Your T. will not be surprised if you send another email to say... I don't want to quit after all. ... My T. told me once when I was wanting to quit to do this and I think it was good advice for anyone... "Think back to all the reasons you came to therapy or the goals you set in therapy and think how you will feel if you don't ever work those things out..." and that is why I kept coming back...

Dealing with all those feelings does get easier but you have to go through it to get to the other side...

Don't wait for your T. to email you back..you email him... Its a boundary thing. Most T's want you to realize this is your therapy and you are in control. They won't tell you that you need to come in...You need to decide to do it for yourself. He may really want to contact you and say" you know you need to keep coming...please don't cancel your appointment". But what I know from my own T. and from what others have posted here, most T.s will not cross that boundary. They will leave it up to you to contact them and ask for what you need. Email him back and 'unquit" therapy and ask him to respond to email that he received it and that you still have your appt time on Monday, since from the Dear T. thread it sounds like you decided you really do want to continue.

From reading other threads you've written, I think you are courageous and can contact him and ask for what you need.