I think Stopdog and Readytostop are right; T's know something else if up when we suddenly quit, especially after you feel you "spammed" his email with a lot of personal stuff. People who really want to quit therapy, because they are through, healthy and happy, etc. don't do it suddenly, in the middle of the night.

When situations rise up out of us and our feelings, one can't fix them by trying to avoid them. You quit T so you wouldn't have to feel dependent on him but that feeling is in you, not in T and the relationship! And you can't get away from you. Much better to take the roller coaster, therapy amusement park ride and learn to deal with the feelings.