I understand that no-one can change me but me. I guess I feel life can be confusing enough without having to sort through genuine behavior and dis-ingenious behavior. It most likely sounds paranoid, but whatever.

This feeling originated from a cartoon I watched this morning. It portrayed a young boy who was being taught by a young girl that dancing wasn't girlish, though the young boy felt it was girlish. I big bear growled when the boy said dancing was girlish. Some penguins, dressed as humans, encouraged the young boy to dance also.

I used to enjoy cartoons when I was a kid. Like Popeye the sailor man or bugs bunny. I mean WTF? I think dancing is great, girl or boy. I like dancing myself. What I wouldn't like is being coddled and told that it was OK to dance, even though one might feel self-conscious. I don't understand why entertainment can't just entertain. Why does something simple need to become a vehicle for behavioral modifiers.

Maybe I'm off base or a potential homophobe, I'll acknowledge that possibility. The cartoon just evoked a strong response from me. Maybe it is because I've felt socially rejected because I wouldn't just "go with the flow" with the right and wrong of the here and now. I mean when I was young, right and wrong were different than right and wrong now.

I guess I'm not an abusive person, but I have abusive feelings that I have to deal with in a non-abusive way. Confusing?

Thanks for reading