My mixed state is like I'm going to go up...like I can see some light...but I crash down again...not all the way down just a little down...my anxiety is so freaking high that I feel it in every part of my body, and all I can think is "You will feel so much better if you put your hands on the stove...ya ya...that'll make it all go away." Then I have to talk to myself, and remember I'm supposed to hold ice when this happens. I hate mixed states...there have been times I would have rather been depressed. b/c my lows are so low that it's beyond feeling suicidel....I'm almost catitonic. Hope that helps.