DM - as one monkey to another - I appreciate every one of your written thoughts here!

Please don't beat yourself up. I am also struggling. It's been a long time since I managed even one day of sobriety. Yet, I keep trying and I truly believe that as long as I keep trying (even if it only lasts a few hours) - then I am not a failure or a loser and I don't need to beat myself up.

I keep coming in here because I know that the experiences of others adds bits of thoughts into my brain and heart. I truly believe that the day will come where all those bits come together and I will succeed in this battle.

And thank God for Madisgram and all of the time she spends here cheering us on, lifting us up, reminding us that it can happen for us too.