I have been bulimic for 30 years. I have not talked with any other bulimics, so I am not sure if this is “normal”, but when am I doing "good", & good is relative, could be 1 day, 1 week, 1 month of abstaining, I consider myself “cured”. I found I have had to think this way. The alternative, the thought that I would be doing this for the rest of my life, is too much to take.

I recently found myself seeking therapy after finding myself utterly alone for the first time in my life (I decided to move 600 miles away) & in a pretty deep depression. It is the first time I have gotten serious about facing my issues. I found out that I may have BP & BPD. I am an ex-drinker, active for 26 years, first drink at 10, & now sober 8+ years, ACOA, childhood abandonment, abuse, neglect, etc....

Anyway, the bulimia took off, or became daily again. I found myself unable, no matter how hard I tried, to abstain. I decided to take a HUGE leap & tell my boyfriend, ask for help. He knows my story, he knows I have dealt with bulimia, but when I revealed it to him in the past I told him I was not active, which at the time, I was not, whether it was a day, a week, a month....

Anyway, he is already possessive, suspicious. I, of course, have displayed some pretty confusing behavior along the way due to my stuff. Nothing major, no cheating, that kind of thing, but I have told half truths, gotten upset & been afraid to reveal why, BPD stuff. I am the acting in, high-functioning type.

Ok. So I know he has a right to his feelings, but he told me this a.m. that while he does realize it was a big deal for me to tell him, the fact that I did not tell him about the bulimia until recently has caused him to further distrust me. I was floored because in my book, it took a HUGE amount of trustworthiness on my part to reveal this to him. A big part of me feels as though I made a mistake telling him.

I don't really have a question. I guess I am just looking fro feedback, even if it is in support of him.

Thanks!