Over the past few days Ive really had a chance to think about things and basically, I need to vent.

I like my therapist a lot, I wish I could have more of him as in a friend, but for what I can get I am appreciative.

I think I am quicker than he is, this bothers me as I am always figuring out things ahead of him, it seems. But we get along well

I don't feel I have made much progress, Im frustrated by this, but I have covered a lot of baggage. But, does that really matter? I'm not sure its put me ahead in any way.

I am comforted at the arms length support my t provides me. But at times I am frustrated at the arms length, not enough to drive me nuts, just enough to make me sad at times. Beneficial?

I depend on my t emotionally, I run everything by him. This is helpful, but he never gives enough answers. He never really gives an answer. I like answers.

I feel like my t doesn't know how to help me some times, maybe lack of training/experience. I wish I felt more confident in him.

So, is therapy helping me? I don't know. The less I see him, the more productive I am in my life, sometimes, not always. The more I see him, the more he is my life. Chicken or the egg...

I want my t to be more directive, I want him to be more structured, more motivating. What I have right now is a man who will let me talk about whatever I want but never really takes me anywhere. I could vent to my friends and family, but I vent to him and he seems interested. But is that what therapy is?

So all these months of sitting in a room with a man who I enjoy as a person, I question his skill in certain areas, ie phobias, but he is someone I want to see. I have made what I feel is no progress, and he acknowledges this to an extent.

This therapy experience feels like some self indulgent vent fest recently not initially. and that is ok. But I don't think I want to continue down this road. Is it me or him? I will speak to him.

What I have concluded is that my therapist can and has been helpful to me, but that he may not be the one to help me move on. he may have been a step in the right direction but maybe I need someone else. I think maybe his approach and my needs clash right now. But I want to keep seeing him. What do you do in this situation?

Does anyone relate to any of this?