I see, Canuck1971. You have given up hope for your heart's biggest desires. That is something to be very sad about. I am sorry.

Possibly, there is someone in the world who would like to be loved by you and who would love you back. I can't promise you. Might it be slightly possible? I am having a hard time myself, feeling blue and not believing that it will really get better. So I won't tell you positive things that I don't really believe, myself.

I can tell you that I know it is hard to be hurting. It does say a lot about you that you manage to go to work and do what needs doing there. To me, that says that you deserve at least some reasonable semblance of basic contentment. I hope something happens that might help you to feel better.