Look. I'm there right now myself. Logically I know setting my hands on fire is not a good idea...so I'm going to go hold ice. If it takes 5 - 10 times...it just does...maybe you should go try that. It might switch your brain a bit....to just make it to the next day.
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Bipolar II
Borderline Personality Disorder
OCD (Thoughts)
ADD (can't take meds for it)
PTSD
Cymbalta 90mg
Lamictol 200mg
Geodon 40mg
Xanax XR 1mg