Thread: should I go in?
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Old Jan 21, 2012, 08:07 PM
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Originally Posted by TheQuietOnexx View Post
i know you are worried, i'm sorry. i am doing ALL i can right now.

yesterday even though i went out and took the scripts i didn't get them filled so it is harder to do something.

i absolutely cannot call crisis because i KNOW they will just turn up with police/ambulance and take me to hospital, they have threatened before. i will TRY to take the call from T tomorrow if she calls, but i know she will be shity with me because going to hospital friday was meant to help so i could cope and use my DBT skills. but it hasn't helped.

right now i am trying to do positive things. i am looking at shopping online, looking at buying things i want so i will have to stay alive for them to arrive in the post. i know it's not much but it's all i can manage at the moment.

the thoughts and voices are too much.. i've always tired to be positive and think well things are s*it now but they will get better and i will have a normal life, well guess what? my pdoc said the other day that nope that was unrealist. i will never have a normal life, i will never be able to function normally, live like all my friends, no all i can hope for is to be able to function. and yeah when i hear that i think whats the point?

i'm sorry i am worrying you so much i really am.
it's ok girl...it really is...!!..it's ok..I know I am pushing you places that you maybe don't recognise....and yes I am being selfish.

it's for me cos I want you to be ok...and its for you and then back at me...what a selfish arsehole I am!

...ok look QuietOne...I can handle it!....I aint no sook! for some reason I have been selected out of the abundance of life?? to protect you right now!

If you don't like it then thats toooo bad!....

I have an assignment and you are extremely difficult you sweet crazy little girly!!
my assignment is to help you through this part of your life.

listen to me now OK!!

STOP listening to the negative stuff... block your ears if you must.

the people that make you really feel bad cannot be trusted...OK

this is very important...I hope you trust me...the people that can change your mind and inspire you and remind you what the sod you are doing here..
QuietOne....you are quiet but I know you get me