I'm from Texas. I'm a damn good mom to my kids...there ya go. Do it for your dad. Make him proud. I don't kill myself for the same reasons you don't...cause it'll hurt like hell, and the last two times I tried it didn't work. So there you go. Mommies can be scary...my mom thinks there's nothing wrong with me. Most likely cause she doesn't want to be the mom that 'missed' something I think. However you feel about her....you gotta just tell yourself...."I'm who is important here" "I'm the one who is in control!" And....if you need help talking to your mom....tell the pdoc to talk to her...or have her call me!!!!