It's impossible to know when the day will be that the miracle will happen and the drink will go down and the person will rise up from the ashes. Some people hit that spot all at once and they "get it". Many, Many more take months, days, years of battle with the bottle to surrender and raise the white flag for good.

For me, It took 3 years of fighting, trying, drinking, doping, and doing it all over agian until finally alcohol beat me into a pulp and I waived the white flag and said enough. I finally knew I was gonna die. Really die. Not spiritually die or die over time, or have some long term drawn out death. I was going die with the very next drink. It was fact. Beyond a shadow of a doubt.

Before I knew that in my heart, mind, body and soul I would never have stopped and stayed stopped.

I love your honesty and the way you keep coming back here and sharing. I need you as you help me stay sober each day.

You are a wonderful example to me of how to keep fighting and trying and not giving up.

Thank you for sharing the ups and downs.