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Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
so a boy had a drink. My battles run deeper than a stupid drink.
I must trust what I am doing right now.
and I am sorry to those who are relying on people like me! (lifetime substance abusers of the most extreme kind....be it a powder a plant a liquid a solid a ....whatever it might be..whatever altered my mind)
I apologise to those that rely on people like me for nothing. because the crap I have been through!
I really should be an inspiration if anything. ( watch the justification in action!)
I got weak tonight and I waited three days and I had my drink. I paid my bills...I did my washing...my dishes and shopping ..I kept my ******** to myself.
I cared...I worried enough...I am ok. I am 40 I am a big boy now...I will manage....when I am done.  |
Does this really mean that you thought about it, had a drink, survived, have kept on drinking & plan to do so till you stop--& will deal with stuff then?
Wow. I hope it's just late & I'm tired. Falling off the wagon is one thing, but to sound so doe-se-doe about it? What's up? Am I mis-reading you?