just have to add that i also have a crazy non-believing mother. gets my blood boiling just thinking about typing to y'all what all she's in denial about. she has so many problems of her own, but thinks she's perfect and lives a perfect life. so of course her daughter (me) must be perfect too! she's frustrated with me because "everything would be fine if i would 'JUST ACT RIGHT'" ugh!!! no wonder i feel like i would have to follow through with sui before she would EVER understand- because that's the truth! she'll be in denial until the end! silly me, i even thought she'd be the first to understand and accept my BPD diagnosis, because she's one of the main ones who's seen the brunt of my wild emotions, splitting, and lack of concrete sense of self. but alas, no, "you don't have BPD" she says to me, "before you were just being dramatic & fishing for attention!" and now, with the diagnosis she says, "you're just self-fulfilling prophecies!" ahh i cannot win for losing with her! darned if i do and darned if i dont! at least i know now (with the help of therapy) that SHE's the crazy one hehe

hugs to you QuietOne i'm still scared as hell to stand up to my mother as well. i'll probably be 70 and still letting her walk all over me. if she doesn't push me over the edge to "teach her a quick lesson" before then which i hope she doesn't, because i want more dogs

hang in there girl, that tiny little thread you're hanging on by is stronger than you think.
-E