happycheeks! It does sound like it would be a very good idea to talk with your tutor. Beside herself, maybe she can help you find someone to talk with about what's going on. Unwanted and harmful thoughts are no fun at all and it can really help to talk with someone, not only for the talking itself, but for ideas/techniques they might have to help you deal with them, you know?

On the job thing... you've probably already heard it a million times before, but the economy really is just that rough these days. It can be hard, but try not to take it personally, ok? (I've been out there in the working world 33 years(!) and have never seen it like this. So, yeah...It's not you, sweetie. ) It'll come back around.

Wish I had the power to banish all the harmful thoughts from your mind, but it just doesn't work that way. Your best course is to talk with your tutor and see what is available to you for help working through them, ok?