Complex PTSD is like . . . a never ending hell that keeps repeating itself. Wanting to fight back against the people who abused you and did terrible, mean things, but instead, being re-victimized all over again by your thoughts and feelings because you can't get back at them and they have gotten away with it. And, you feel like the loser/victim all over again . . . and you are. This is not a life and it keeps repeating and repeating.