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Originally Posted by VenusHalley
I guess I am depressed. I been feeling pretty awful past few days, to the point of "if I cannot live the life on my own terms, I am gonna go out on my own terms at least".
I know I may be bit irrational at the moment, but aren't these still my thoughts? Does it really matter if that is me, or if I am "just" depressed at the moment, if this is how I feel? I am very existentialist even at good times (except, I don't mind as much).
I just need to get my spark back.... ASAP.
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Well, I guess even irrational thoughts
are your thoughts. But they may lead to doing things that you'd regret, that you otherwise wouldn't do, and that's what you'd hopefully be able to avoid.
What you're describing is sounding a little more serious than just being existentialist. Time for some Rescue Remedy, maybe? I don't know what to suggest - getting your spark back isn't always a matter of just wanting it and trying for it, I'm sure you've seen that (or otherwise you'd already have it back, right?)
Take care of yourself and keep us posted - you keep the conversations lively around here.
