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Originally Posted by silenthill
My life has changed so much in these past 2 years,some times i feel so lost,some times i set and think about T, the good T, not the one that hurts ppl, the one i knew,the Doh Investigator told me she didn't care about you and she will never care about you, and i knew he was right, why would she be any different then other ppl in my life,maybe i'm the one to blame for all this after all i was looking for ppl that where different then the ones who hurt me all my life, looks like i was wrong to believe there could be one person in the world that i could count on to be different
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And that is why I hope that this T gets maximum punishment. Not only did that T have a privildged position in terms of "us" believing that she could be trusted, but she had a responsibility to her clients, who may be vulnerable, who had already experienced tough times with people in their life. She more that anyone else in your life had a responsibility to show you how it could be different, to challenge your belief that everyone is the same. She failed you totally - there are people out there that can be trusted, but it sounds like she succeeded in pushing you further into that place of distrust and I hope oneday she will feel very ashamed of what she did.
Please have faith that there is not just one person, but many who do have the capacity to care, to be trustworthy. You will only discover that by reaching out and taking a risk and I appreciate that may be such a hard thing to contemplate right now.
What you have done is enormously brave, use that same strength to give someone else a chance - maybe through the mental health services, someone who comes with a reference.
Please keep posting if it helps, this is a safe place silenthill and I care what happens to you -
Soup