I can't fully express how much i understand. If i had a better answer, i'd add it here.

What to do you when you have no friends, live in the middle of nowhere, and have been depressed off your *** for so long you don't have hobbies or interests of any kind anymore? I don't even really have a religious affiliation.

So, what do i do? I have a cat. And i joined this forum. Nifty, eh?