JustDontAsk, I really do appreciate your suggestions and seeing a doctor is something I have been considering. I guess my only problem is I'm afraid it might not help and it'll just be a waste. If I could talk to my friend each day that would be great. I feel like the only other thing that could help is if there's a positive change in my life, which I don't think will happen any time soon. Everything else seems to just be a temporary fix, if anything.

Calista+12, I agree, this really isn't living. On days like this I feel like I'm just surviving and watching myself fall apart. I do what I can to get through the day, eat maybe 1 or 2 meals, sleep and then do it all over again the next day. I recently found myself waking up several times during the night. I can't seem to sleep straight through anymore.

Edit: I did contact my friend and asked something but she ignored me because she was "busy" and then just forgot about me. Maybe I'm overreacting but that felt like I wasn't even worth 2 minutes. That's really all I need right now...