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I posted in one of the other forums, can't remember which, that I've been having a case of the megrims the last few months. I've just been unhappy with my life. It's not depression rearing it's ugly head. I jst was unhappy, pretty much about everything in my life.
I've been putting a lot of thought into the feeling the last week. I've been unhappy because my life consists of dragging out of bed in the morning, going to work, come home in the evening and crash on the sofa until bedtime. Go to bed, drag myself out of bed... repeat five days a week. Sleep 12 -15 hours a night on the weekends. I should explain, I have two medical conditions that cause extreme pain and exhaustion. The fatigue is NOT from depression.
I was royally PO'd that this is all my life was. I wanted more. Then I made myself stop and identify what I want in life. Things I came up with were - in no particular order - a job I love, spening time with friends, cuddle time with my fur babies, reading and time for my crafts. I had to yank myself up short when I realized that's what I have in life right now! I have a job I love. I spend time daily with my furbabies. I get together with friends once or twice a week. I read every day. I work on my crafts in the evenings.
This lead me to wonder why if I have what I want in life I've been dissatisfied. On one hand I told myself to stop complaining and acknowledge what I do have. In other words, I have what I want so learn to appreciate that.
At the same time, I'm sick and tired of being exhausted all the time. I think some of my dissatisfaction comes from the fact that the exhaustion has taken away my chance to chose to do something else in life.
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