Right, the daydreaming has been a method of escape. I don't think I could write much about my daydreams, they are mostly delusions of grandeur type daydreams. Dance routines or "hearing music intensely" are the alternatives to a lesser extent. Sometimes I'm playing around with the kind of person I would like to be, but they are often end in delusions of grandeur type things again.

It's kind of like doing drugs without the drugs. I can do it for hours. I pace back and fourth, usually to music. It started for me as a child in response to various kinds of stress and difficulty in coping with depression at a young age. I was a poor student and struggled to socialize, I had endless family troubles. Its hard to know how to cultivate my imagination for good things. But for the most part, I do it when I feel anxious or depressed, and then don't get things done that I should. But you guys are right, I should work on manipulating them to be more useful rather than get rid of the habit completely. I'll check out the link.