Today I feel so crap its unbelievable. The place is mess, cant be doing with housework and yet I hate the untidiness, I am hungry but cant be arsed to eat, feel dirty but cant be bothered to shower. I hate all these negatives but I cannot find the strength to do what I am supposed to do. Everything is getting on top of me and I dont know how to find my way out from under it. I havent even get the energy to cry.