Hi everyone,

I only just joined today - i have BPD and OCD, but there is one issue that has been bothering me more and more lately and thats my sexuality.

Ive always considered myself to be straight but for the last couple of years ive started to think that i may in fact be bisexual. I get in a real state if i ponder the issue too much. At the moment im trying to just 'be' with the fact that i may never know for sure but i have very black and white thinking - im either one thing or another. I think thats why im finding it so difficult to contend with the fact that i may possibly fall in love/ be attracted to either a man or a woman. It derails my sense of certainty if you see what i mean. Im not repulsed at the thought of wanting to be with a woman - in fact its quite the opposite.

I think maybe my OCD might be coming into play a bit with wanting more control over the whole situation and therefore knowing either way what i am. Or my illnesses may have nothing/ or little to do with the matter and i might simply be blowing things out of proportion. How have other people out there coped with uncertainty? How have you found your illnesses affecting your sex life? Any responses would be greatly appreciated. Bekki x