I was shocked when i first read a list of symptoms for BPD. I finally knew exactly what was wrong with me but of course i felt devastated at just how much there was to contend with. Then of course unless you've got a specialist or someone with a lot of experience in treating those with personality disoriders, most doctors in my experience have behaved really inappropriately towards me - their either punitive in their treatment or overly motherly. It gets tiring when your constantly labelled as attention seeking and manipulative - even by friends and family. *Sigh* Its just one long tiring fight isn't it?