Hi Sezzie,
I hope you're still feeling uplifted and positive. I think your trying to maintain that positiveness is key to your getting through those hurdles. You'll probably, realistically, feel a little down and out again and that's to be expected. I hope it doesn't make you forget about what you've written, though.
Some of what you wrote inspired me.
Perhaps you can print out what you wrote and highlight some of the things you said to look back on to help you to remember how you're feeling now and that it's in your grasp-should you come to doubt that in the future.
I'm giving you big hugs and well wishes.
Please, keep us posted on how you're doing.