Okay so last year I met a girl at my college who found out about my self-harm. She never judged me or anything and she never asked to see (but maybe because she knew I would say no) however she did have loads of questions and misconceptions about self-harm.

She said she knew a girl once who self-harmed as a way of getting things. If she asked her parents for something and they said no she would retaliate by saying she is going to cut herself because of it. This girl would turn up to school and 'boast' about cutting herself and use it to manipulate people.

So my friend immediately said she always associated it with attention seeking and was really shocked when I told her hardly nobody knows about my self harm. She didn't understand as to her self harm is attention seeking yet I don't tell people about mine and I most defiantly never show it.

She asked if it hurt and I told her it did and sometimes it hurts like hell, she seemed very shocked by this as her friend use to cut herself openly in public. I told her for me I like the pain, I sometimes cut to feel the pain... To match the pain on the inside with that on the outside. However I now have a high pain threshold and I now enjoy the calm and tiredness it brings after.

It made me curious, does it hurt you? For me it did and sometimes does but it is now one of them pains that quickly disappear.

If you was asked 'why' you self harm what would you say? For me it is matching internal pain with external pain.

What keeps you self harming? I don't self harm nearly as much as I use to, I now go months between but I do it to get that calm and tired feeling.

What do you hate the most about it? For me I hate that self harm is such a taboo subject and I feel the need to scar myself in order to feel better.

Thanks in advance for reply's. I look forward to seeing you're answers.