Jess - I'm sorry. I referred to something that I thought you mentioned, and that was not the case. Still, I might not be so far off the mark. If you do have people who love you, I am glad. I see that you feel they do not understand. Even though I was confused, maybe I hit on what might be causing you heartache.

Forgive me for mis-remembering your posts. It would be hard to say what hurts, if you feel like you don't understand. In my experience, loneliness is at the back of depression an awful lot of the time. That might be a hint to help you, or it might not. Only you will be able to say. I hope you can come to understand better what is hurting you.