(((Christinia))) Really sorry it has to be this way.

Either on meds & feeling better in some ways or not on meds, then good for a certain amt of time, then who knows.

Ask yourself, how has this approach worked for me in the past? Are you sleeping less & less? The usual things that happen getting manic.

Thought Tott had a great idea of writing down the you feeling good, like today vs the you feeling & acting while heading towards mania. If you think your husband is a good compass for the question ask him.

When do you see your T next, do you feel comfortable discussing the med issue with him before talking to pdoc about it? Our T's & pdoc's know all about us wanting to stop meds.

I'm not going to tell you what to do, because I don't like being told what to do. I know what the logical answer is for you, or anybody with history of rapid cycling. Also know that that doesn't make it any easier for you to decide. Again consider calling T or pdoc tomorrow.

Sending many good thoughts & prayers your way.