Hey Kinda (((( Hugs )))

You brought up very valid points ... my T and Pdoc are in the same office so usally i discuss stuff with my T if he feels the pdoc needs to be in on it he will emaill him right away and ill have an answer same day or at the latest the next day..

I have been rapid cycling for so long and even tho i feel kinda happy my mood has been up and down a few times each day off the haldol ... it just feels nice to feel " happy?" I absolutly wont let myself get carried away and wind up on the pysch ward again 3 trips last year were plenty for me .. I will most likely be back on the med within a few days if not tomorrow ..typically i dont feel like i have a right to be happy ( working on this with my T ) so feeling " happy ish" is so not the norm for me and for my husband to notice that i seem happier and back to joking some was wonderful to hear ,,he said he will keep an eye on me and let me know if i do anything odd ..

thanks so much for your wisdom and kind words