Last night I was really depressed. I thought about suicide so much that I dreamed about it. I dreamed that I was with all the people from my school, but our school was in this big building by a huge, beautiful lake. However, I was separate from most of the other kids, I was kept with special/troubled/whatever-you-want-to-call-them students and all I really remember about it is there was a rope in the room (I had been thinking about hanging myself before I went to sleep). And the other students I was with had depression like me. There were other kids at the lake too, not with our school, and they were all there because they were suicidal. There was a big cliff by the lake that some girl had tried to hang herself from, and some kid tried jumping off of, but they both ended up ok. Then the dream kinda went off track and we went out on a boat and stuff... But that's not related. I just found it creepy that I had dreams about suicidal people, I've never had a dream related to my depression before. And I just had to share it with someone. Thanks for reading.
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Truth ain't gonna change the way you lie
Youth ain't gonna change the way you die
-Foo Fighters
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You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole
And convinced yourself that it's not
The reason you don't see the sun anymore
-Paramore
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