BIG SIGH! My T asked if anything since I saw him last week that felt positive. After thinking a moment, I said yes, that I found a scrap of speaker cloth in my driveway. ??? I blew my subwoofer in the car a year ago, and when I have the top down, it's folded into that area and it doesn't vibrate, but if I have to have the top up, grrrrr on the bass. So I 've been looking to buy some speaker cloth to redo that speaker...even checking Goodwill stores for an old speaker I could cut the cloth out of... nothing... and then.. there it is..in the driveway. (I used to play a game... "pulling" things into my life.)

I've had a flare in PTSD, T says.

My Post Office put a pin in my mailbox (so I can't use key and get mail) and the lines have been too long to stand in to argue it. Finally today I could do that..and they aren't sure why the pin was still in, they had received my payment and gave me my mail. Well... due to my not getting my mail for a week, of course my paycheck wasn't deposited... but something went awry at the bank prior to that, and they bounced a check on me. That payment was for a credit card that I had made a reservation for something on.. thus the reservation was cancelled. Gotta figure out the bank's problem tomorrow.

Today, I finally made contact with my alarm company permitting department. They called my local police, who had been billing me for non-registration of alarm, and fining me for each alarm I've had (some were panic) and threatening me for non compliance. I had been registered, and my alarm co. supposedly set the PD straight.

My mom didn't receive her motorized w/c yet... the company says they want 20% copay. No copay with medicaid...IDK why this is a glitch..nor if she has any contact or has been approved for medicaid like my sister was supposed to work out. Called mom and soothed her; gave her idea of who to call for help.

I received in the mail another notice from the HOA (homeowner's association.) They are upset that I haven't done anything about the front trees that were damaged during hurricane. (No other neighbor has either, yet no other neighbor has received any dun letters like me ) They gave me 14 days to do this now, and that was from date of letter... which, of course, I received a week late. PTSD... haven't been able to get this done in 6 months, now I have one week or they put a lien on my home. I left a note on door in case yard guy comes by...so maybe he can do it or arrange to have trees removed/replaced?

T said I have anticipatory anxiety. Sure, doc. This, too, shall pass.