Yes, bipolar sucks! Been NOT taking my meds as prescribed either...I HEAR you loud and clear. It's a really tough decision to make when we know what lies down the path ahead of us. I am feeling somewhat hypo manic myself and it's a good feeling...makes it tougher to pop those pills into my mouth. Trouble is...I can very quickly spiral out of control and end up in a really ugly place...to take or not take the pills...now that IS THE QUESTION...isn't it? I wish I could answer for you...just be careful!