lady, it sounds like your dx re exhaustion n pain might not be treated as best it can b? idk, but our vision of our world, imo, is very important. we all need to feel self-fulfilled. also it may be helpful to explore these feelings with a T. i felt this way once-re no hope, etc-with a T. it help me immensely getting to the reasons i felt this way. glad u posted. hope my reply may be useful or something to chew on. 
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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