Thread: Just thinking
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Old Jan 23, 2012, 11:20 AM
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Hi Blue! Long time no see. You said that you are starting to feel depressed again. I see depression as feelings turned inward instead of being expressed and dealt with. Then wanting to SI to improve your mood. Anything change recently? Anything bothering you more now? Are you still working?
Sannah, it is so good to see you! Uh...yeah....everything. I have had to change jobs. I am starting a new one soon. Hopefully. I am in the process of starting. I need to be making some money. My husband is really getting on my nerves. We have been fighting a lot lately. I am studying for my masters and taking my boards for another certification this July and very nervous about it. Studying and afraid I will fail. My kids that are teens are in a state of.....the way teenagers are....and I know they are teens and I don't over-react, but it makes me sad that they can get so critical of me over every little thing. I know it is expected for teenagers to be self-centered, and some are more than others, but my 2 oldest daughters and now my older son can be really mean (especially to his younger brother). Where did their little sweet selves go? Ugh! I can go on and on...and my 1st grader is having trouble with reading, I just met with her teacher.....it all makes me want to cry....

It sometimes feel like everything is closing in on me and I just want to get off the planet. I cannot even go there thinking about hurting myself, that would be my old way of dealing with things. I am (supposedly) more mature. When I feel overwhelmed, maturity goes out the window and I want anesthesia for my feelings.

I am home today trying to study....and doing everything else but studying....

Blah, blah, blah. I would love to hear how you are doing! How's stuff with food?