these have been the hardest months to try to get through. I feel like i cant enjoy anything. I feel like these medications have stripped away the little identity i had left of myself and i look in the mirror and a stranger with sad eyes is starring back at me. This is not me. Im not a silent person, Im not a lazy person who spends days on end disappearing in a couch. Im not a fat woman with dark circles and no tan with stringy hair. Who the hell is that? Where is my body, my personality, my outgoing self? Im lost and Im so scared I will never be found...