moremi - You are so not alone. I could have written your post. I spent a good part of December in the hospital. I just couldn't be trusted to be alone. Since getting home, I seem to have disconnected with life. I am simply existing in a foreign body that I no longer recognize when I look in the mirror. And I definitely am not participating in life. Simply just existing.

I made plans with someone to start getting out and walking. An attempt to get me out of the house. However, it is raining here today. I guess that I will have to wait til tomorrow to see if I will be able to follow through.

Just a suggestion, do you have someone that you might could walk with at least a few times a week? I have read that it has really helped others, plus the exercise is good. I figure it can't hurt me to give it a try.

We are worth to much to give up on ourselves. The fact that you reached out and verbalized how you are feeling really helped me to know that I wasn't alone.

Sending lots of hugs your way!!!