My mind is so many places I can't even explain to my pdoc this morning what I'm feeling....

Past 4 days he upped my parnate that I've only been on 2 weeks. My mood is happier but then it goes down, then up, the so irritable, then I'm so sleepy during day but can't sleep @ night. Ugh it's like every 1/2 hour it changes.

The one thing that did go away...Sui ideation. That's a 1st for me. I thought this parnate cured me somewhat but I've been feeling ALL over the map.

I hate depression but at least 2 weeks ago I was in 1 spot....depressed.

Perfect example. This morning I get up get kids ready, singing, making breakfast. Go to pdoc appt happy. I'm like u have found the cure....on way out I have thoughts of me working again. I'm going to redo my resume, look for jobs. Stop at store feeling focused. Drive home feeling tired but fine. Same when I get home. 1hr ago started getting down. My mind is racing all the stuff I need to do, wanna do, should do...all kinds Of stuff....Now I'm typing this from bed.
Have to get up soon to get kids, but I know I'm gonna be like a zombie I can already feel it.

I HATE FEELING LIKE THis!!!!!!!!!!