I'm sorry, Yang. I went through a long phase where I would become physically ill in session when I started talking about something really difficult. Other times, if T asked a question or told me to recall something I didn't want to talk about, it was as if my brain would not allow me to think about it, and I would get a massive headache right then and there. I wish I had some advice for you -- but I can tell you that the more you talk about it, the easier it will get, and the fewer physical symptoms you will have. Stay strong!