I realized that I don't want to go to therapy in part because I feel like I'm under a tremendous amount of pressure IRL. My day job is overwhelming in terms of financial goals..with this economy! Right now, therapy needs to be a place where I can let down my guard, be kind of experimental and weak, sometimes, rather than tough.

The fact is, I'm barely surviving THERAPY, not my job.

I'm going to say that when I go in tomorrow. My job does not keep me up at night; therapy does.

Maybe that's why this whole thing felt so WRONG.