It's day four or five of dieting and my ED is starting to take over. I thought I was more in control of this. I've gotten use to the empty stomach feeling and now I'm finding it really hard to force myself to eat. Today I had an instant breakfast shake, an apple, one quarter of a can of soup, and a little bit of chicken and pasta for dinner. I realized something was wrong when I was trying to eat the soup. It's like I can feel everything as it goes in my stomach and I hate it. I don't feel good about myself when I feel anything in there. I got through about two bites of soup before I wanted to puke. The entire can of soup is only 120 calories, so it wasn't something I should feel quilty about. I managed to force some more bites and drank some of the broth over the course of the next hour, each time fighting back my gagging reflex. I worked out again after dinner (burning off half the calories I ate for the day). I like working out right after dinner, because it keeps me from purging and by the time I'm done my stomach feels empty again. I told my husband when I got back that I need him to force me to eat my icecream later even if I change my mind because I've been having a hard time forcing myself to eat. I feel so guilty for telling him. I know he's disappointed and worried. Now that I told him I know he's not going to let me escape the icecream. I'm scared that I'm just going to end up purging it anyways. The exercise helps me not feel so bad about it and the fact I'm way under calories. I've been checking the scale constantly though, and I haven't been losing any weight. I'm hoping it's just because of PMS and extreme bloating from that right now.