Hey lori5780

Im really sorry your feeling this way. I too have OCD which centres mainly around obsessions rather than compulsions. Your right it is a lot of work to get well, but the results are so worth it. It certainly seems like you need more help opening up more to others - have you thought of maybe joining a support group if you don't already or discussing the issue at greater length with ur therapist? Your right its not your fault - but you don't have to feel alone, feel free to pm me anytime if you just wanna chat. And remember - other peoples thoughts are exactly that - you have no control over them, so as hard as it is, just try and let them be with their thoughts. If i find myself reflecting on what someone has said to me in a negative way or im trying to summize what someone else might be thinking i say to myself: 'those were Sharons (for example) thoughts, mine are different and thats ok,' or 'i thought Sharon was angry with me but i can't be certain because im not her or i didn't ask her.' I know these little affirmations might sound simple or obvious but try bringing yourself back into reality and seperating what you thought happened to what actually happened if you see what i mean, you might not find it helpful but its worth giving it a go if you haven't already. Good luck and remember you can vent all you want on here - we're all ears