I'm going to spend the night at AA meetings. It's the best/safest place for me.
Wish me luck please, because I think I may need that too.

My dad died 19 yrs ago last night. He was an alcoholic, didn't tell me till the first time I visited after I'd been in a 6-wk residential rehab I'd checked myself into. Until then the myth was there were no drunks in our family.

My dad died from Alzheimer's. I was his caregiver. Actually those last years were our best adult years together. But anniversaries of late have been very hard. Tonight at work I realized I'd forgotten the date, and the guilt was a physical blow.

I'm not handling it well. I couldn't get hold of anyone, even my sponsor, fast enough & panicked. Holed up at home & now am at a meeting. I'll just keep going, there are mtgs all night somewhere in the area. Or I'll stay at my sponsor's.