I've been thinking too much lately, and this has been on my mind all day, so I just need a place to get it out...I figured this was that place...

Anyway, I've been thinking about everything I've been feeling, and that got me thinking about how I never used to be like this. I enjoy sports, but lately, I've just kind of lost interest. And I've never lost interest before, as sports is my outlet for all of my issues. I don't understand why it's like that. I decided not to go to practice today even though there was no school because I wasn't feeling 100%. I maybe felt like 90%, but it used to be that I would do ANYTHING to play sports when I was sick, far worse than 90% anyway...

I've also lost my interest in school...I don't know if it is because I got bored, or if I just don't care anymore...I have a 4.0...and I still got a 4.0 last semester, but I just let my grades slide a little. Instead of getting 99s and 98s, I was down in the 94s and 95s...That isn't normal for me. I just have no motivation, no reason to do well...at least that is how I feel. Even though I want to go to a four year college and play softball there...

Speaking of softball and motivation, I haven't had much of an interest in working on recruiting information either...I just don't feel like doing much of anything anymore...

The other thing is I get so irritated, so annoyed. And I don't understand why. Normally it's only like that with my mom, but lately, it's been with everyone...I don't tend to be that kind of person either. I just can't explain my actions...

I am tired a lot of the times...and I make bad decisions by staying up late...not eating healthy...both things that I normally do. I get headaches, and I never used to. I never have any energy...I never used to be like this. Maybe this is just my own fault. I don't know.

I've never been checked out for anything, I normally feel fine, but this is concerning me...Nothing may be wrong with me, I could just be freaking myself out, but I just want to know that if that is the case. If something might be wrong with me, I want to know that too. I just don't know what to think...

Thanks for reading.

JustDontAsk