I know the feeling. At times i was the craziest person in the city but i looked good. Always had a nice body even a week after childbirth. Now i have gained 50 lbs and i look pregnant again. Its adding alot to my already horrible depression. Ive been on so many meds this year i cant even name them all. Riight now its seroqel zoloft and tegrtol. I am still gaining every week. I dont think i can stay with the meds, i feel worse on them.