I ignored the forums for a bit due to stability issues, but then my internet got cut in the middle of October. I only just got it back 2 days ago & suppose I just wanted to let the few people I used to talk to frequently know that I haven't dropped off the face of the Earth!

On a bittersweet note, I haven't had a true mood shift in quite a long time. Through the middle of October was my first period of genuine normality, which was extremely welcome considering how poorly I was doing prior to that. During November, my shifts were only minimal & lasted a week or two at a time. December, however, my normality came back & it has pretty much stayed...
However, my hallucinations/delusions have not ceased. My delusions, in fact, have been growing in amplitude & I have been having some cognitive issues. I can barely get more than a couple words out sometimes, I'll just randomly withdraw at even the slightest stressor like being asked to repeat what I've said, & my brain is a jumbled mess. So I feel pretty verified that it isn't simply Bipolar.

I'll still post on here minimally, just to see how everyone has been doing & to give advice on occasion if it's ever warranted. But I won't be nearly as active as I used to be. Between my social alienation, trying to find proper psych care, & trying to keep myself as ridiculously calm as possible to avoid symptoms; my mind is really preoccupied.

Thank you all for the help you've given me in my times of distress, however. I really appreciate it & send hugs to everyone who needs 'em.