hey thanx for the advice. I am scared I guesss in the past I always had an excuse eithier finding my little brother dead or my sister dying in a car reck I always was able to hide it with my drinking ot people just plain feeling sorry for me so as much of a shock when the new pdoc told me I was manic deppressed I was releived that i was still not withdrawing from alchol. I do see a therepist twice a weeek and i am going into an outpatient program I am very close with my primary doc she is awesome and I have a great mom and dad My husband on the other hand well I guess we will see. I have to get myself together b4 worrying about anything else but again thank you for your support.