Sorry you are feeling that way. I would suggest calling one of these toll free numbers.

Suicide Hotlines (National)
National Hopeline Network for suicide prevention and emotional crisis toll free nationwide:
1-800-784-2433
The Trevor HelpLine
To aid in suicide prevention in gay and questioning youth
1-800-850-8078
Covenant House Nine-line
1-800-999-9999
The Help Line USA
1-866-334-4357
National Adolescent Suicide Hotline
(Answered by the runaway switchboard)
1-800-621-4000
National Foundation for Depressive Illness, Inc.
1-800-248-4344
National Youth Crisis Hotline (reporting child abuse and help for runaways)
800-448-4663
United Way Helpline
1-800-233-HELP (1-800-233-4357)
The Nationwide Crisis Hotline
1-800-333-4444