Madisgram, The way I have heard this is and egomaniac with an inferiority complex. I know when I was drinking and when I got sober I was the center of the universe and everything had to revolve around me. Be done for me, when I decreed and how I wanted it. Yet, I truly believed I was a piece of crud lower than a dung pile and didn't deserve to live, let alone get credit for anything I might accomplish that was positive or good.

I was loaded with false pride and false humility. I really believed that I could only be at the top of the mountain or underneath the dung pile. Never could I simply meet my fellow man eye to eye.

Today I can meet my fellow man and woman eye to eye most days. I am not better or worse than anyone. It is one of the greatest gifts of sobriety.